I need a fresh start today. How about you?
Some of it was circumstances – lunch went long, an interview went long. And then there was the technical problem I was trying to resolve.
After spending 2 hours implementing a solution, I realized it would only fix half the problem. I had scheduled 45 minutes for it. It was going to be done by 11:45 AM. Now it was 5 PM. I was way behind schedule, tired, and frustrated. So, what did I do? I wasted more time playing games. (BTW, if you’ve never played Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook, don’t. It’s totally addictive.)
I ended up only getting about half the work done I had planned yesterday. Maybe I could blame the events of the day, but the truth is I was mostly to blame. I didn’t manage my time or frustration well.
So, here I am today…
I already had a full plate today – 2 interviews, development work, a blog article to write. Then at 5:15 I leave work for a 4-5 hour church elders meeting. Now I have to figure out what to do with the half day of work I didn’t get done yesterday.
And I’m still upset with myself about yesterday.
(By the way, if you’re thinking, “If he’s so busy and behind schedule, why is he writing a blog article?” That’s a good question. I’m processing. I work through my frustrations and bring them into perspective by writing.)
Yesterday is gone. It was a bad day, but there is nothing I can do to change it. Staying upset with myself is not going to make today better. Allowing negative self-talk to go on in my head is only going to make things worse.
I pray that God would forgive me for not being a good steward of the precious time He gave me yesterday. And I pray for a fresh start today. We are so blessed to have a merciful God who is so willing to forgive and give us a fresh start! And does not hold my failures against me, neither should I.
Of course, it doesn’t mean I don’t have to deal with the consequences of what I did yesterday. I am going to have to reprioritize my schedule for the day. I will probably have to give up something fun in order to get done those things I didn’t do yesterday. But now I can do it with a good attitude.
So, how about you?
Do you need a fresh start today?
Maybe for you it wasn’t poor time management, but something else you’re upset with yourself for doing. Perhaps it was an outburst of anger. Or maybe you lied or let lust get the better of you. Perhaps you’re struggling with an addiction or a bad habit.
Put yesterday behind you. Start today with a fresh slate. Even if you’ve told yourself that a thousand times and you’ve fallen short a thousand other days, God will still forgive you if you ask. And you can give yourself another chance.
Today is a new day. Let’s make the most of it!
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